...Once upon a time there was a girl. Who taught to be intelligent and hardworking. The girl that everyone expected a lot of things from. The girl that thought that was her duty to fulfill. The girl that made it. The girl that was successful in the other’s definition of seeing the world but in fact, lost. The girl that got sick in the end. The girl that had to isolate herself from every harmful thing that seemed so right.The girl that discovered her own guide book in the deepest at the darkest of all nights. The girl that finally came to her senses. The girl that finally connected with her own child spirit. That girl is me, That girl is you, but that girl could be everyone...
Hi,
My name is Şeymanur. I am a freelance illustrator, artist, writer, youtuber to be, someone who loves illustrated books and many more things. Also, ex-architect :). And, Yep the girl right up there is me. Been working at creative things nonstop since two years old.( But that picture is probably from 2005 when I was seven at that time.)
TMI
I was one of those kids that did well when it comes to math and science. As a consequence I thought I should study the majors that seemed more “serious” or “real job guarantee” kind of ones. So I graduated from Architecture with a 3.72 GPA. But strangely I was not feeling accomplished. -HERE COMES THE PLOT TWIST- I ended up finding somatic-illness which I later learned was my body’s response to say “Hey you are actually in emotional pain but you lost your connection with your emotions so, let me give you a real response instead” . Thankfully, I am fine now but I have to admit that was a huge life lesson that I learned the hardest way. Truly went to the dark night of the soul. But, that night something cleared all of the dust off my mind. That thing was “Regret”.
Through regret I remembered the things that my own children heart wished me to do when I grew up. Today all of my efforts and hard work are all dedicated to her. Because she suffered so much in darkness , today I am in daylight. Life is a dark place when older ones underestimate the will and power of the children.
“As kids, we spontaneously sing and dance and tell stories, and along the way, someone comes and says, ‘No. You shouldn’t be doing that.’ And we slowly begin to unlearn our passions. I think you have to hold on to those things.” ~ J. Michael Straczynski
Nowadays, I try to see and experience life through the colorful lenses of children. I also “unlearn”.
“Half of wisdom is learning what to unlearn.”- Larry Niven✨
I hope you enjoy reading my story. Feel free to write and share. I rented this tiny corner of the internet to connect, share and collaborate with others:) It was so nice to meet you :)